the beginning

Dear Kailey

Today is the day I realise you're in my tummy.
The doctor told me it would be most accurate today and so I did the test right after I woke up.
Positive.
I was in shock for a while.
I kept staring at the blue lines.
I am a mummy.

I sent a text to your dad.
He went into shock, but recovered in time to come and take me to the GP.
The GP asked me to keep you and recommended a gynae.
I was too confused to think.

After seeing the doctor, your dad and I had a talk in the park.
He said he can't have you now. You don't figure in his plans.
If I want to keep you, I'm on my own.
We made an appointment to see the gynae tomorrow.

I went home and cried.