It's been a very bad week. Now all I feel is emptiness inside. Some days I wonder if this is punishment for what I had done.
But I don't care what others think. Babe, you must know that I love you very very much and that I still miss you every day. Anyone can think otherwise but you.
The next step in mummy's support group exercises is to forgive. To forgive all the people and factors which had influenced my decision with regards to you. It is a very difficult step. I especially can't forgive your daddy. No matter how I understand that the forgiveness step is for me to start letting go and to find my balance again, I just feel that he does not deserve such a generous gesture. What do you think babe? Should we both forgive him?
